Juliana Moves

Hi! It’s been so long. 2023 has been quite the year. The hardest year of my life, I think. To say this year has had its ups and downs would be an understatement. I think I have experienced nearly every emotion a human can over the last 11 months and while it has been a growth experience – I can definitely appreciate that! – it has also been exhausting and challenging and I am ready for something else.

Over the last many weeks I have been meditating (maybe not the right word, but definitely the appropriate reverence) and visualizing the word ‘abundance’. I sort of just imagine big and bright and full, like one of those outrageously large bouquets of flowers that celebrities buy each other or a really stunning display of Christmas lights. I found that it buoys me and that is a feeling that I deeply welcome.

Instead of worrying and fixating on my stressors and things that can go wrong, I’ve also been working on asking myself: what if things get better and bigger and more joyful and amazing? What if, six months from now, I am happier than I’ve been in a long time and look back in disbelief at how low this year made me feel? I’m really looking forward checking in on my birthday next year. I can’t wait to see the difference. 🙂

One of the oddest symptoms (for lack of a better word) that I’ve noticed throughout this stressful year is that my memory is completely shot. It wasn’t uncommon for me to forget the details of a conversation within an hour of talking – even when I was fully immersed and present in the conversation! My brain just absolutely could not hold information or thoughts beyond processing the crap in front of me. Fortunately, over the last few weeks I have already noticed a significant improvement and it is such a relief. My brain isn’t always thinking about something else in the background, wasting precious energy. I am able to fully focus and retain information on the people, happenings, and life in front of me. Thank goodness.

I am rambling, but I think I’ll probably spend the next many months just processing this entire year. I saw an Instagram video that jokingly said “2023 was for the plot” and honestly? It resonated. I had never had such a journey with my own mental health and I learned a lot of important things about myself in the process. Not to sound like everything is said and done, I am certainly always growing and learning! It just feels more doable now. 🙂

Anyway, I am really hoping to write in this space more moving forward and to explore the things and people that I love and bring my joy… and hopefully discover more of that along the way!

Thank you to everyone who has been so kind and supportive of me this year. I am eternally grateful for the love I have experienced.

Here’s to chapters ending and fresh, new ones beginning!

Love,

Juliana